It's not a depressed feeling. It's a lethargy, really. Tired. Wishing I hadn't eaten those 2 apple turnovers yesterday. Almost went somewhere, didn't go anywhere. For the best. After all. Oh by jingo. Eating noodles this much plays havoc with my bowels. No more details for you with that. Hate being dependant. Hate not having a car. Hate not being what I think I should be. Hate mirrors. Hate fingers. Hate Saturday afternoon bunko get-togethers.
Love video games. Love $84. Love hotarubi. Love dictionary of political science terms that beckons from my wishlist.
Feeling like I want to withdraw but I won't. Nothing to do with school. Just feeling weird in general. Probably my brain is suffering a bit. Will eat protein.
Five, in German, is funf. Damn German.
Really want to curl up next to someone. Having things affirmed. Getting sushed. Told things are fine.
Not overreacting. Under functioning. Need to stop doing this to myself. Tired of the fight. Am an old general. Want to fade away. Emerge as new. Tis OK. Will wear off. After protein.
Hopefully.